"The tendency to believe that other people are paying closer attention to one's appearance and behavior than they really are."

So apparently my professor for the online class I'm taking this semester wants the class to meet on campus this Saturday, aka later today, from 4-6pm to do God knows what. Well.. discuss the syllabus and class I'm guessing, but yeah. Pshh.. I thought the whole point of an online class was to not have to meet physically?! And who the eff meets on a Saturday? C'mon now. And anyway, the professor sends this email to us 2 days ago.. definitely not enough time for me to either A) get Saturday off from work or B) put in a shift preference. So here's hoping I don't get major points off for not showing up. However, if I end up getting dropped from the class it may not be the worst thing in the world. I finally got the name of the prof teaching that class and I went to ratemyprofessors.com, turns out it's a hard class and the professor sucks.

I could/should just drop right now since it's a GE class that I'm not even sure I really have to take. The only thing is.. it fit so well in my schedule. I'm already taking afternoon/night classes and everything sorta just fits right now. By taking an online class I don't have to stay even longer on any certain days or come way early or have any long ass breaks. Plus, it's an extra 3 credits and I don't wanna take 4 classes. I wanna take 5 because I can. This semester I'm finally gonna talk to an advisor and I don't want them thinking I'm just wasting my time when instead I could be using this time to take as many classes as I'm allowed. I'm looking at open classes and I see none. The haven't taken the prerequisite for the classes I need and the classes I want have conflicting days & times. I don't know.. I'm debating whether I should just drop this online class now or not. Ughhhhhhh I don't knowwwwww. No other class that fits in this stupid schedule of mine.

So, this Summer's been kind of different from others in the past. First of all, it's only now beginning to feel unbearably hot. The fact that it took it until August to feel like this doesn't bother me though. It's just odd, but ehh, okay. Second of all, work's been pretty slow for a peak season. So slow that everyone's getting 6-6 1/2 hr shifts instead of mandatory 8's but hey, that's just dandy with me. Lastly, I've been able to fall asleep within 15 mins of going to bed these last two months. I'm only now starting to toss and turn before I can fall asleep. In short, this Summer has changed.. but for the better. I hope I can fall asleep fast tonight though. I couldn't sleep until 6am yesterday because I had a bad dream (if you can even call it that, it felt like it was 5 secs) that I was outside of a friend's house at night and some guy walks up to me and is about to stab me! Luckily, I knew the guy and aside from my dream.. he's really not scary at all. It was weird and I always have a fear that someone's gonna pop out when I'm trying to get to my car.. so yeah, I couldn't fall asleep and couldn't even toss and turn until I heard my mom in her room getting ready for work.

10 more mins until I Love Lucy's on TV Land. I really need to get the show on DVD so I don't have to stay up to watch one episode.

So, one month from now I start my 3rd year of college. I can already tell I'm gonna miss my first 2 years when I had to take easy peasy GE classes. Registering for this semester is already scaring the crap out of me. I finally decided it was time to take a peek at my future so I cracked open the Psych major's website thing on our school page & read what classes were recommended and in what order to take them. Now I reeeeeeeally wish I had read that during my first semester of my first year. Luckily, it says that I should meet with an advisor no later than my second semester of my Junior year. Ugh.. I'm so behind but better late than never I suppose. I'm just afraid if I meet with an advisor they're gonna say "What took you so long?!" But then again, I'm always afraid to meet with counselors and they always end up making things less scary. Mostly because they know what they're talking about. And even if they don't, at least they sound like they do. And that's good enough for me. But crap, this semester I've only got 3 classes in mind and it's because every other class I wish I could take at the moment have prerequisites. A damn prerequisite class I should have taken the first semester of my 2nd year. Ugh. I seriously need to take Winter and Summer classes to catch up. And I wanna talk to a counselor pronto. And I'm mad I can't sign up for the classes I need. Not now anyway. I have until the 28th of this month to register. Here's hoping things get better in the next few days. I don't stress about much but this is getting me really sad/anxious.

"Today, you're going to benefit more from conflicts and challenges than you will from collaboration and agreement. So don't worry if you feel like making some waves. Your contrary attitude is just what you need to make the most out of this unusual day. Enjoy any turmoil you come across, and add your voice to the fray. You certainly shouldn't create arguments just for the sake of it, but you shouldn't be overly afraid of getting people miffed about what you have to say."

Fuck. I already don't want to go to work today & this is just telling me I'm gonna get in some arguments.

I've got to hand it to horoscopes. I don't usually believe everything they say but lately they've been on the ball. If I read today's horoscope a couple days ago though I think I'd have no choice but to read them for the rest of my life.

"Today, you need to be more proactive about getting what you want -- go right to the source, right to the person or people who can help you get where you need to go, meet that person you want to meet, or invest in that resource you need so badly. Making more aggressive moves might be hard for you at first, but once you get a hang of it, you will find that it creates some impressive results. People are receptive to hearing what you have to say, and they will respect your forthrightness."

It would've been nice to have read this a couple days ago because I put in my 2 weeks notice at work with Michael the manager and I left with an offer for a personal leave of absence. 2 days later he called me up to fill out the form and now it's pretty much a done deal. It sucks that I had to go as far as putting in my 2 weeks notice to get it but what's done is done and I can go on my trip without quitting. I'm happy & Michael's my favorite manager. =)

Parade shift later today. These shifts are so different from what they used to be. I've gone through so many phases, so many different "regulars" out there on the crew. The current regulars seem to be happy and social with each other. I'm only loud & social when I'm in my comfort zone. I seem to only be my real self around one person at work nowadays. I used to be comfortable out there with almost anyone but now I feel like I'm forced to play a role that the others have created. And when I don't comply with how I'm supposed to act, people assume something's wrong. Nothing's wrong. Just because we don't have similar interests, and the interests we once shared have gotten old doesn't mean something has to be wrong. Especially if I was never truly like that to begin with. I'm tired of acting. I'd much rather be accepted for who I really am. It's a nice feeling. To be liked despite acting like the dork I am. I only feel like myself around one person at work and I'm gonna miss said person when I leave.

I'm quitting soon. Couldn't get the time off for the vacation I'm going and I couldn't possibly call in for 2 weeks straight. I'm not going to leave with a "peace out bitches! I'm out of here" attitude though. I'm actually debating re-hiring when I get back, probably in a different department though. I know there's a 3 (or 4? or 6?) month period before I can re-hire though so I'll probably job hunt between then and if I don't find something by then, I'll go back to the mouse now that I know it's a guarantee hire. Money's money and I think I'll know what to expect the second time around. I'm putting in my 2 weeks notice very soon. Even though I should be cherishing what's left of this chapter in my life, I still feel like calling in some days. I'm hating the shifts they're scheduling me. They suck balls. I'm SOOO excited to be getting out of there just in time for the crazy summer hours.

I Love Lucy is on. I should just get the DVDs already so I don't have to stay up until 2:30am to watch an extra episode. The only episodes I can't stand are the ones where the Ricardo's fight with Fred & Ethel. That and the oh so overrated ones like where Lucy & Ethel work in a candy factory and where Lucy advertises Vitameatavegimen.

I had more to say but I'm getting pretty sleepy so I'll continue some other day.

I miss S Club 7.



And this song was my favorite:



But really, did they need 7 of them? You could barely hear the guys and some of the girls never got solos. I'd wanna be in a group like that. It reminds me of choir. Singing corny songs with cheesy dance moves & never worrying about having a solo =)

I never watched the show on a regular basis. I've probably seen about 3-4 full episodes tops and that's when it comes on TBS at like 1 or 2 in the morning and I'm on Winter Break or Summer vacation. But I remember when I was really into quotes (still am) and I read a bunch of mushy love and life in general ones from the show that got me wondering why I never watched. So since I had discs to spare on my Netflix seeing as how I've already seen all the movies I want to see I thought I'd start watching the show from the beginning. It's always nice to watch TV shows in DVD format so you don't have to wait a suspenseful week + no commercials. That's how I got into Lost. Anywho! I got through the first two discs of Season 1 and never imagined Dawson to be such a pansy. I thought he was supposed to be a bad boy that everyone wanted or something but he's pretty insecure and kind of annoying. And blind. Which is weird coming from me since I tolerate the sappy, whiny, sensitive, guys. Heck, I'm in love Ross Geller. I do like that he's a romantic though. That's kind of endearing. But ANYWAY! So I'm mad at Netflix right now because disc 3 of Dawson's Creek is on the top of my waiting list and I've already returned my other DVDs and what do I see? Lars and the Real Girl and my other movies that are waaaay down on the list being shipped to my house. UGH! And it's not like there's a wait for my Top 5 movies. This show's been over for quite awhile now. So I sent back one of the movies I got without watching it just so I could get the right ones faster. I get really antsy when it comes to not getting what I want (at the moment) and all I really want right now is to continue my Dawson's Creek streak. I was reading over some quotes again but now they're kind of like spoilers. I already YouTubed the series finale a couple months ago because I was bored and was confused as to who Joey actually ended up with but something about reading the quotes now.. I wanna experience them as it comes. Okay, I'm done here. </rant>

Awww, I'm watching Animaniacs right now. Memories. I wish they had Doug on DVD or something. I'd really like to watch those episodes again.

Yesssssss for it being April! School's almost out :)

So, school's back in session. It feels nice to go to bed in the 10 o'clock hour & actually fall asleep in no time at all. Waking up early's not so bad at the moment because I've missed listening to Kevin & Bean. My classes are pretty cool so far.

My History prof is a jolly old man, but there's nothing too special about him. My dance prof is kind of intense. She has a zero tolerance for talking to others in class, yet she breaks loose herself when she demonstrates the dances she's lecturing about. She's a little intimidating but whatevs. And my Psych prof's okay, but I think I'll continue to compare her to last semester's prof because Prof. Catone was pretty awesome.

For my MW classes I absolutely LOOOOOVE my Sociology professor! He's an older guy but he's got more energy than some of my younger professors. He's witty & down to Earth + there's no text book required. Wouldn't mind listening to him lecture. It's gonna be a fun class! My last Psych class is Comp Applications in Psych. The pre req for it is Stats aka Psych 201 which I haven't taken yet so I might have to drop it. =\ I'm dreading the process because I've never added/petitioned for another class. I've always been ready by day one. I could just keep taking this class right now since the Prof wouldn't know if I've taken Stats already or not.. but I'm scared. I don't wanna screw myself over when he starts talking about things I don't understand.. and I don't wanna screw over my classmates when we do that group project. I'll check this weekend for open classes & hopefully everything goes well.

Work later today though I may get ER-ed if it continues to rain :)

I waste SOOO much time on a person only to get shit in return. I'm awaiting that glorious day when the tables finally turn.

Christmas was lame. Felt like any other day, yet again. Christmas Eve was cool though because that's when we decided to open presents. We don't have any set traditions in this family (aside from visiting this one nearby neighborhood because one cul-de-sac goes all out with their Christmas lights and it's just amazing) so we open gifts as near to Christmas as possible, depending on schedules. Since I was working Christmas morning we all agreed on opening them whenever Christmas eve. I had my heart set on this new phone and all I really wanted was the "ok" to get it, was totally willing to pay for it myself and etc. Well, then I thought that it wouldn't hurt to ask for my parents to pay for it so I hinted to them that that was what I wanted. Time goes by, we're opening presents, I don't see it so I'm bummed. I stay quiet and go to my room & just lay down.. mainly because I was dreading being the only one going to work the next morning. My mom comes in and asks me what's wrong, and says that my dad's willing to buy me the phone if I just tell him which one, etc. Basically, they're being so sweet & I'm being a total brat. But yeah.. so I threw a hissy fit and got the "ok." That and a $200 check from them to buy it but I'm most likely going to rip that up because seriously, I really don't mind buying it myself. Sometimes I don't even like putting up wish lists for my birthday and stuff because I have to wait to get things (mostly DVDs) when I can just go to my local Target and get it myself. I'm surprised that even after getting a job I still haven't learned the value of a dollar and I still waste money on a bunch of useless things. Maybe it's because I'm not forced to pay rent or pay my cell phone bill or stuff like that. I'm sure when I have to pay for that, I'll be wishing I didn't waste my money. But until then..

So back to Christmas. Well, I worked 9am-4:30pm. But the last two hours were spent at Downtown Disney. Not a bad shift. I like it because it's not craaaazy early where I have to make small talk with the morning people to kill time before the park opens. At 9am I can just clock in and get to work. And ending at 4 isn't bad either because by 1 or 2pm I get into this mode where it feels like I've just started a day/night shift.. but I'm off by 4.. and that feeling's just lovely. I didn't get anyone mean in particular today. But there were guests that stood out.. like the one lady in a family of 5 who came up to my stroller gate while I was taking tickets at DCA (very crowded cuz it just opened and the lines were delayed because we were stamping them as well) and said "I've got a reservation at Ariel's Grotto and the lady said if I came up here I could get in" .. umm. Who would tell her that? I told her I couldn't help her and to ask someone else so she left. Then like.. 20 mins later she's back in my line and hands me her City Passes. I recognize her and she's still complaining about her reservation and I tell her that she needs to redeem those passes for real tickets. She says no one told her that and "look, I'm not trying to be rude..." so I'm like fuck it, and I let her in. Didn't stamp her though so who knows what she did afterwards. I'm hoping they weren't stamping at the reg DCA exit so when she did finally exit and tried to go to DL, she'd get denied a second time and actually do the right thing with those passes.

I also had these guests at DL who had expired tickets. They were 2 day hopper tickets but their first visit was early on in the month. I explained to them that the tickets expired 13 days from first visit but they were set on informing me that the tickets were valid between whenever-12/26/07. I'm like "yeah, I get it, but..." blah blah. So they tell me where they've come from and that they're not going home so I tell them to step aside and I hear them talking about the tickets and that one lady insisted she was right because of the "Valid through blah blah-Dec. 26th" and that just annoyed me/made me laugh at the same time. Luckily, Javier put them in their place and they got to walking. DTD was boring, but pleasant. Hope there are good people working this Thurs since I've got a full shift there that day.

That was pretty much it. Got home at 4:45, did nothing afterwards. I hope 10 years from now my Christmas' will be more eventful.

I'm still shocked that it's true.

I don't know what happened to me this semester, but this is the worst I've done grade-wise, ever. This brings me back to when I was talking to a family friend a couple months ago. He said he thought the hardest years of college were his first ones. I remember thinking he was crazy and that these baby GE courses are a piece of cake and that I'm scared to move on to upper division classes. But now I know where he's coming from and I think it's true. Your last years of college you take classes revolving your major, your specialty, your whatever. This semester I took a bunch of classes I have no interest in whatsoever because it was required of me. How did I do? Craptastic! Of course, I don't blame my poor grades on lack of interest alone. I blame my poor study habits of course. I went about this whole semester all wrong. No more MWF classes only because it leaves me WAAAAY too much time to procrastinate. Every MW evening felt like a Saturday because I would get to sleep in the next morning. And I didn't feel like doing my homework TR, just because. And no more online classes either. Took my first one this semester and HATED IT. I don't know why I didn't think about it before-- I already hate listening to lectures in person and I never do the assigned readings so why did I think it'd be any better having to read my freaking lectures? Anyway, I blame myself and hope to God my parents don't make a big deal out of the fact that they won't be getting that good student discount on the insurance. I'll do better next semester I promise. I'm taking easy peasy classes again.. Two psych's, sociology, dance, and history. I can slack off in history and average it out with the other classes. Mon-Thurs classes as well so I'll be in school-mode most of the week.

Okay.. back to studying for finals.

2 more weeks of real school. 1 week of finals. Then WINTER BREAK! Sooo excited :)

Things are swell. Tomorrow's Thanksgiving. Well, technically, it's today but I still feel like it's Wednesday since I haven't gone to sleep, so yeah. No big plans for the holiday. Parents are going away for a couple of days. I've got work-- a parade shift from 2-10:30pm, aka the usual.

I'm tired but my brother's got friends over & they're playing Guitar Hero and it's keeping me up. I've got an online anthropology test to take by midnight Thursday. I was gonna do it sometime tonight since I don't fall asleep until 2am anyway but my book's in the living room with my brother's company so I'll just wait until morning. Before work tomorrow (later today) I've gotta get a new nametag. I'm SOOOO bummed I lost mine. I have no clue where it might have went. I switched purses to take to work and even switched cars and usually I take my nametag off after shifts since there are certain people at work I don't want knowing my name.. but that phase has passed and I've accepted that he/she already knows my name by now so I know I didn't take it off. I'm guessing it popped off while on my jacket sometime between last Sat and Sunday. I think the first replacement of a nametag is free so that's no biggie but I'm just bummed because I don't think I can get another 1 year pin. Now whenever I work a morning shift, I'll be asked if I'm new. Heck, I haven't been at the Main Entrance for awhile now so even if I work a regular night shift I'm sure I'll be asked that same question. Ughhhh. I hope I find it lying somewhere in my room.

Black Friday shopping soon. This'll be my first time participating. I've got money to burn. I'm excited.

Parents are leaving early in the morning. I should sleep since I know I'll be waking up to say g'bye. That and I've got that damn Anthro test. This semester = grades suck. I think next semester will be cake. Two Psych's, dance, Sociology, aaaaaaaaaand.. History. Not bad. Anyway, I'm off. Happy Thanksgiving, all!